Long time, no post.

haven't been posting for quite a while. I guess I just was a little bit busy and... lazy. But a lot has happened. Last monday I met a guy in the nightclub and we're sort of in the middle of something. The worst thing is I can't find a way to communicate with him as he has just arrived to England to learn the language and as for now he doesn't speak English at all. So I'm really trying to do my best to force myself to speak some Spanish and French. Oh yeah... and he's 10 years older than me. Great.

I want...
...*** not to be angry at me when I tell him I love him but can't be with him as the things are complicated right now. I feel so sorry for him and ashamed for myself. I just don't want him to reject me after I tell him because after all I still feel he's the one. But under the circumstances we cannot be together. It's just so consfusing :(
...M. to stop telling me off about what I'm doing right now. She just thinks I'm stupid to get involved with that new guy while I'm still in love with ***. I want her to understand I cannot stay inbetween of sth for another two years.
...to have my extended essay finished tonight.

XW.